Monday, April 16, 2018

Adjusting to Baby Mom Life (again): 4 Months!

Blakely is now 4 months old -- time flies when you're having fun! Since my babies were so far apart in age, I had forgotten how much WORK a baby is!

I remember the sleepless nights and the crying and the need for "me" time... but I'd forgotten all about how time consuming babies are!

"A Typical Monday - Friday for Mom" by Destiny Darbison

5:00 -6:00: 
Wake up call! 
(Don't bother to set an alarm, you'll be up in plenty of time for work)

Nurse the baby, shower (if applicable), fix hair (sometimes), 
put on makeup (minimal), brush teeth, pump, 
change baby's diaper, get her dressed, 
pack workout clothes, 
fix breakfast (frozen waffles), prepare coffee, 
pack the breast pump and attachments, 
make lunch, pack snacks, 
wake up the other kids, 
oh and don't forget to put on some respectable work clothes! 
Load everything into the car (don't forget the baby!) and go. 
Turn around and go back 
because I'm still wearing my house shoes.

Listen to the baby cry all the way to daycare 
because she hates her car seat with a passion, 
drop off the baby, go to work, 
all the good parking spaces are gone, 
walk into my office a few minutes late.

Varies. Do worky stuff, pump, meeting, pump, more worky stuff, 
meeting, pump, worky stuff, etc.

Go pick up the baby, listen to her cry all the way home 
(car seat is evil). 
Catch every red light.

Varies. Pump/nurse, maybe workout if the weather doesn't suck 
(Oklahoma has no idea how to weather), 
fix dinner (sandwiches or pizza again!), 
bounce the baby, rock the baby, bounce, rock, play, 
make stupid sounds to make her smile, 
walk around (don't sit down, she hates that), 
finally eat (whatever the food was, it's probably cold by now)

Give the baby her bath. 
Do it really fast because she's not a fan of baths right now 
and will cry the whole time. 
Diaper, lotion, pajamas. 
Smell the baby because she smells sooooo good. 
Give freshly cleaned baby lots of kisses.

Convince the baby it is bed time. 
Spray some of that magic sleepy spray on the bed.
 Bounce, walk, sing, nurse...
 be sure to do all this while laying in an uncomfortable position 
that makes your neck hurt. 
Admire her sweet little face when she finally falls asleep 
because she is so perfect. 
Feel sad because she's growing so fast, 
wasn't she just born yesterday?

Make the other kids (oh yeah, there's more kids!) go to bed. 
Read a story, say prayers, 
convince my son that school is fun and he should be excited to go tomorrow. 
Admire his sweet little face and feel sad that he's grown up so fast. 
Wasn't he a baby yesterday? 
Tell the oldest daughter goodnight and feel sad again 
because she's almost a teenager
 and wasn't she just a little kid yesterday?

Eat everything in the pantry 
(popcorn, dry cereal, old Easter candy, etc.), 
drink some decaf coffee, and try really hard to stay awake 
and watch The Great British Baking Show. 
Read Bible. 
Fall asleep on the couch.

Go to bed, pray the baby sleeps all night.

Nurse baby.

Nurse baby.

Nurse baby.

Nurse baby.

Nurse baby, try convincing her it is not time to wake up yet. 
Pat pat pat her back.

Seriously, it's not time to wake up yet. 
Pat, pat, pat... 
Nurse baby. 
Pat, pat, pat... 
Okay fine, might as well get up.

And then we do it all over again.

It is a busy life, but it is also perfect and beautiful! I don't have much time to workout these days, I eat terrible, and I still have 10 more pounds of pregnancy weight to lose. But... I don't care. I mean yeah, I care because I want to be in shape again and go to the gym... but I know I'll have time for that later. But Blakely will not be a baby forever, proven by my older two kids that have grown like weeds.

So for now I'll just workout when I can, pack 5 millions bags to take to work with me every day, and enjoy this crazy hectic life we live!

Much love,

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

I'm BACK!: 3 Months Later

3 months ago little Miss Blakely JoAnn Darbison came into this world at 12 something in the afternoon (I'm a terrible mother, I can't remember the exact time). She weighed 7 lbs 15 oz and was 19.25 inches long.

I can't believe it's already been 3 months! Blakely is the spunkiest little baby. And Jordan turned SEVEN in January. Y'all. I can't HANDLE how big my "baby" Jordan is getting!! Him and Ali are so good with the baby. Jordan loves her to pieces and says that since she smiles at him all the time, she must have loved him first before anyone else! And Ali has some kind of magic and knows just what to do to calm miss priss down when she's cranky. Not once have either of them showed signs of jealousy or anything. They are so in love with their baby sister!

Miss Blakely loves:
  • Looking at the world. She talks to inanimate objects all the time!
  • Bath time
  • Her family (her favorites are her sister and brother!)
  • EATING. This chunky little girl lets you know when it's time to eat, even if it's only been an hour since she last nursed. 
  • Being held allllll the time 
She does not like:
  • Her car seat. Unless someone is back there entertaining/feeding her, she'll cry the entire time. The longest trip I've taken with just her was nearly 2 hours. It was not a fun trip!
  • Being held by strangers. You may not be a stranger to me, but you are to her! 
  • Having her diaper changed.
  • Sleep. LOL She's getting better but this baby can FIGHT sleep like a pro. 
Look at these precious pictures taken by Rustic Images when Blakely was only 3 weeks old: 

In other news: 

I've started working out again! At 6 weeks postpartum my doctor released me for physical activity and I went home and ran a one mile test run to see how it felt. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I was able to do the whole mile without stopping even though it was pretty slow. I was happy about it! 

Since then I've been doing random at-home workouts with my beautiful Rogue equipment that my husband bought me for my birthday back in October (when I couldn't play with it much!). I only workout baby 3-4 days a week. I usually get home a little before 6, so I miss out on the 5:30 class at the gym everyday. By then the sun is going down, I need to pump or nurse, and the baby is cranky and ONLY WANTS MOM. lol But sometimes I just go outside and workout anyway because I need it for my mental health! My workouts usually don't last more than 20 minutes. 

My shoulder has improved a little bit. I can finally do pullups and push presses again with a barbell. I'm totally worthless when it comes to dumbells. I struggle pushing up FIVE POUNDS overhead with my right arm. I still can't back squat more than 45 pounds, the weight of the bar and the angle at which I have to hold my arm hurts realllly bad. I think eventually I'll get there but it's going to take a lot of work (I'm good a that) and patience (I'm bad at that). 

So far, I've lost about 30 pounds, so 10 more to go before I am back at pre-baby weight. I really don't care if I get down to that or not... 5 more is my goal but I'm not stressing over it. As long as I can workout again like I want to, I don't really care! 

Sleep: I get maybe a total of 5-6 hours of sleep on good nights, 3-4 on the rough nights. Blakely usually wakes up to nurse every 2 hours. On good nights she'll eat and go back to sleep, on bad nights she eats, fusses, eats, fusses, sleeps maybe 30 minutes, fusses, etc. Those are the times I'm lucky to get an hour stretch of sleep!

Nutrition: Blakely helps quite a bit to ensure I don't eat too terrible. Since I'm nursing, there are foods I have to avoid to keep her from being too gassy (and CRANKY). I can't eat:

Ice cream
Doritos (but Tostitos are okay... lol)
Peanut butter (Sad)
Anything with garlic
Certain types of veggies

Those are the things I'm certain upset her... I try not to add anything new to my diet EVER because it's too risky! LOL 

Basically I eat the same things day in and day out: coffee, dry waffles, granola bars, crackers, sandwiches, white rice, chicken... It's a very bland diet but I'd rather eat this way and get a little more sleep at night! 

And there you have it, our first 3 months in a nutshell!

Monday, February 26, 2018

The Day Before

**I wrote this the day before my scheduled c-section: Wednesday, December 13, 2017**

Tomorrow is THE DAY and the clock seems to be standing still (as it has done for the past 39 weeks!). So obviously I have what feels like hours and hours and days and days to ponder the arrival of Blakely JoAnn Darbison.

I wonder what she'll look like. I wonder if she'll take a pacifier or, like Jordan, refuse it 99% of the time. I wonder if she'll have a birth mark. I can't wait to be super weird and count those 10 little fingers and 10 little toes, just to make sure. I wonder if she'll play sports someday! Will it be basketball? Softball? Track? Will she enjoy reading? Will she love school?

I wonder if she'll have hair! I hope she's healthy and happy and that everything goes as planned. I pray for her future and ours. I know from experience that you can't always protect your children from hurt, from sickness, from sin. But I pray that God gives us the ability to guide and comfort her in all areas of her life. I hope I can be a patient mother. Loving. Accepting.

I pray that Ali and Jordan never feel neglected or replaced by their baby sister. I want them to understand that my love is SO ABUNDANT that I could never love them less. My heart just continues to grow and grow to make room for all the love I feel for my husband and children.

I pray that Ali never feels "left out" of our family; being a stepdaughter means she doesn't get to spend as much time with her siblings. But she is so loved and admired already by her baby brother, and I am certain that her and Blakely will be so close, just like I am with all of my sisters. I pray that Jordan forgets how badly he wanted a brother!

I wonder if the house will ever be clean again after today! I hope that I can just ignore the mess and cherish the memories. I worry about how I'm going to handle the next couple of weeks with ALL THREE kids at home (Christmas Break, y'all!).

I wonder what my body will look like after this. I was so very happy with the way I looked before this pregnancy; will I have be content again? Will I be able to get back in shape? How long will it be before I feel "normal" again? How long will it take? How hard will it be?

I pray that Blakely sleeps! I remember endless, sleepless nights with Jordan. I remember hiding in the car at 3 in the morning so I could get some rest while my husband tended to the baby. I pray that she doesn't have ear problems or colic or anything else that would cause her pain or discomfort.

Oh Blakely, we all love you so much already. I am so ready to meet you and hold you and watch you grow. We promise to take you to church and teach you what it means to have a relationship with Jesus. We will try our best to be good examples. We'll likely show you that no one is perfect, even mom and dad! We promise to teach you love, forgiveness, and acceptance, but also how to stand up for yourself and what you believe.

I am so proud to be your mommy. I love you. See you tomorrow!

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Pregnancy: 38 Weeks -- Last Post Before Baby!


Obviously I'm just a littttttle excited. The past 38 weeks have been the slowest of my life... This meme totally sums it up:

I have 4 more days of work (after today)... I plan on working all the way up to the day before the c-section. Do you know how hard it is to get out of bed every morning? With Jordan I stopped working around 35-36 weeks. Everyday now I have to give myself a pep talk: "You can do this. You CAN do this. Every day you go to work is another day you get to spend at home with your baby girl. Get UP!!" 


Today's Date: 12/7/17

How many weeks: 38

How big is the baby?: Probably around 7 pounds and about 19.5 inches long (the length of a leek) 

Weight gain: 36 pounds (LTKFC... laugh to keep from crying)

Food cravings: None

Food aversions: None

Diet: They say that around this time in pregnancy, you can't eat as much because there's just no room in there for food. Lies. I can still eat ALL DAY LONG just fine, thank you very much. I'm still doing pretty good except for at night. Here's a snapshot of Monday's food diary:

Breakfast: 341 calories
Lunch: 364 calories
Afternoon snack: 680 calories
Dinner: 1,050 calories. THANKS KFC.
Evening snack: 288 calories

That was my worst day in a long time... I'm usually better than this but the point is, every day COULD be this bad if I gave into the way I really want to eat! When the sun goes down the evil within awakens and suddenly I'm STARVING and I'll NEVER BE FULL AGAIN. And then I have heartburn all night long. Oh dear heavens I can't wait to hit the gym again...

Exercise: On the rare occasion that I do sleep, I dream about running and going to the gym... does that count?

Aches and pains: The aches and pains have almost become so ingrained in my identity that I can't really identify them anymore, they're just a part of who I am now. Namaste. 

Favorite moment this week: Paperwork has been SIGNED! We are officially scheduled to check into the hospital next Thursday at 6 a.m. and the c-section will occur sometime mid-morning. I hope earlllllly morning because I'm not allowed to eat or drink anything after midnight. Is it sad that I'm so concerned about not eating (or drinking COFFEE) for a few hours?

Looking forward to: DELIVERY! I am so excited to meet our baby girl and see her little face! We've been talking about what color her hair and eyes will be, how long she'll be, who she'll look like... We are all SO READY to hold her and kiss her and have our little family complete.

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Pregnancy: 37 Weeks

Time is still draaaaagggggging, y'all. I keep thinking that at some point I'll look back and think time sure has flown...

I am so so so so ready to get this baby out. The c-section is still scheduled for December 14th... TWO WEEKS AWAY! I'm still working which is extremely difficult, but I really really need to save all my sick/annual leave for when she gets here. The plan is to work all the way up until the day she's born. FOR REAL.

We finally picked a name! Blakely JoAnn Darbison, my sweet little spunky gal. I can't wait to meet you! Bags are packed, we're ready!

In other news, today marks ONE YEAR since I had my shoulder surgery! It still hurts, I still do not have full range of motion, and I can barely lift anything above my head. So... that's that. Something I'll just have to live with!


Today's Date: 11/30/17

How many weeks: 37

Trimester: Feels like the 15th... but the baby app assures me the next couple weeks are still technically the 3rd trimester.

How big is the baby?: In real life or in my brain? Because it feels like she's about 15 pounds but in reality closer to 6.5 pounds and around 19 inches long. 

Weight gain: 33 pounds. I expect to put on another 4-6 over the next two weeks, though. At this point I don't care, I'm just ready to have her OUT! LOL

Food cravings: Pie. And brownies. And everything bad.

Food aversions: None. 

Diet: LOL. I mean... I still try. I gave up cake/cookies/candy this past month and I only had 3 cheat days, but I still ate a lot of other really bad stuff (burgers, bread, tons of peanut butter, bacon, etc.) which most likely canceled out all my efforts. Oh well. 

Exercise: LOL. Everything hurts. The closest thing I've gotten to "exercise" in the past few weeks is taking the stairs at work.

Aches and pains: Same as always, pelvic bone, butt, back, feet, knees, stuffy nose, heartburn, exhaustion, etc...

Here's a new pain: a burning sensation in my mid/upper abdomen. I "researched" it (aka typed some stuff into Google) and found that this is fairly common... something about everything is stretching and tearing in there, and the pain will persist until delivery. Well that's just wonderful. I wonder if I'll ever have any core strength ever again. I already had ab separation before this pregnancy, I am afraid to imagine how bad my poor little stomach muscles are going to be after this one!

Favorite moment this week: At my appointment this week my doctor informed me that he thinks Blakely has flipped and is no longer breech. What!? It really doesn't matter either way BUT it's kinda neat knowing that she's turned the right way. Jordan was upset about it because, "She's not lot like me anymore!" LOL

Looking forward to: Next week I sign the consent forms for the c-section! I'm just so ready to get this party started!

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Pregnancy: 35 Weeks

Today I am 35 weeks along... In 4 short (HA) weeks I'll have a BABY. I guess I've known this all along... I've seen her on the ultrasound screen, felt her ballet skills inside of me, endured the endless nights of heartburn and peeing 400 times a day... but still, it's hard to wrap my head around there being a BABY at the end of all this! What a MIRACLE!

I occasionally have minor bouts of anxiety ("WHAT WERE WE THINKING!?") but for the most part, I think I've been fairly calm and collected. I'm sure when she's here and I'm holding her and looking into her beautiful little eyes, I'll panic. But I feel much more prepared this time.

I look back at when I had Jordan and seriously... I don't know how the poor child survived. I had NO idea what I was doing! And I felt utterly depressed about how "broken" I was as a mother. Everyone said, "Oh, you'll just know what to do, your maternal instincts will kick in the minute he's here." Well, mine never did. Throw being a stepparent into the mix, I was royally failing at parenting! I think maybe when Jordan turned 4 or 5, and Ali was around 9, I started to feel like I was getting the whole "mom" thing down... but I still have days when I look at their beautiful faces and think, "I'm screwing them up so much."

The bad thing is: I'm probably right.

The good thing is: Surely I'm not the only mom to ever feel this way!

So, Moms of the world, take heart: you're not alone! Your own mother and grandmother may have seemed to always have it together, but I'm going to bet she had her own insecurities and doubts and fears. We're all just here doing the best we can with what we have, so GOOD JOB, MOMS!


Today's Date: 11/16/17

How many weeks: 35 (28 days to go!)

Trimester: 3rd

How big is the baby?: Baby girl weighs about 5.25 pounds (size of a honeydew melon) and approximately 18.5 inches long! Whoa baby! 

Weight gain: Funny story... my doctor LAUGHED at me at my most recent appointment because I'd gained SEVEN pounds in two weeks. How. Is. That. Even. POSSIBLE!? So anyway... yeah... 30 lbs (This is according to my scale. The doctor's scale is the devil so I've learned to ignore it).

Food cravings: Well, after the 7-pounds-in-two-weeks fiasco, I decided to cut out cake, candy, sweets... and basically that's the hardest thing in the world to do and I all I really want is cake, candy, and sweets. So instead I eat a lot of other really bad things, probably canceling out my effort.

Food aversions: None. Zero. Zilch. 

Diet: I wish I could convey my *sigh* into this post. Some days my eating habits are stellar. I should get a blue ribbon. On other days... well... burgers and fries and pizzas rule me. And yet I still feel shocked when I step on the scale... I have noticed, however, with my recent cutback on sugar that I don't swell quite as bad... score! *I'd like my blue ribbon, now*

Exercise: What exercise? I have replaced lifting, running, and crossfit with laundry, cleaning, and eating. Sometimes I don't even go to lunch because the idea of walking ALL THE WAY to my car seems like way too much work.

Aches and pains: ALL THE ACHES AND PAINS. The doctor asks me each visit, "Are you having any pain?" and I always respond, "Yes, every single day." And then we have a good laugh and then I have a good cry...

My tailbone and pelvic bone and lower back and ribs all hurt. Sitting, standing, walking... to top it all off, my stupid SHOULDER still hurts. I am approaching the one-full-year-since-surgery date and it STILL HURTS. I can't lay on my right side and it wakes me up multiple times at night throbbing. Very frustrating. 

I'm lucky to have anything that still fits. Sometimes I just stand in my closet and stare at all the cute things I can't wear. Confession: I've kept two entire Stitch Fix boxes in the past 6 months and most of those things still have the tags on them... someday, I WILL wear them. For now, they're just taking up closet space.

Right now I basically wear the same 2 pair of pants over and over again, and t-shirts. I'm lucky to have a really understanding boss because I'm pretty sure my XL t-shirts paired with maternity jeans and Converses are not, technically, "business attire." I've also given up on regular bras. Sports bras are life.

Favorite moment this week: Okay so this was last week but... 34 week appointment! Getting to hear her heartbeat is always so special.

We've also now had 3 perfectly wonderful baby showers! I have such amazing friends, family, and co-workers! And now the nesting begins... which is way more stressful than comforting because my two girls have to share a room, and Miss Ali CANNOT keep her room clean. So every time I go in there to organize the baby's things... I trip over shoes or clothes or random knickknacks!

Lastly, I've started wrapping Christmas presents! I am getting a big jump-start on Christmas this year. I doubt I'm going to feel like shopping and wrapping gifts in the next few weeks, so I'm trying to get it all done NOW! I also started hanging up the outside Christmas lights. Half of them don't work. *ANGRY FACE*

Looking forward to: Thanksgiving! This is one of my FAVORITE times of year because we get the whole family together. With my side of the family, that literally only happens MAYBE once a year. I love cooking (and eating) and then of course decorating for Christmas. I really want the next 4 weeks to go by fast because I'm miserable BUT I also want it to go by slow so I can really enjoy family time and having a few days off work... what a conundrum!

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Pregnancy: 32 Weeks

It's my birthday! Today I am 30 YEARS OLD. THIRTY! It seems like most people have a mental breakdown when they turn 30... but I'm actually really really proud of this milestone! Someone told me the other day, "When you miss a birthday, it's a bad year." TRUE STORY! I hope I don't start missing birthdays for a long, long time!!!

Today is also the 32 weeks pregnant mark--woohoo! 7 weeks to go! We've scheduled my c-section for December 14th. We had another ultrasound this week--baby girl is right at 4 lbs and (like her big brother) is BREECH. Goodness gracious my babies have minds of their own!


Today's Date: 10/26/2017

How many weeks: 32 weeks

Trimester: 3rd

How big is the baby?: About the size of a large jicama (whatever that is...), between 16 and 17 inches long and weighs 4 pounds!

Weight gain: 26 pounds. Oh well!

Food cravings: Salt. I have to salt everything I eat or it tastes suuuuuuper bland.

Food aversions: None. Seriously. But my daughter made us all join in or a nutrition challenge this month and I haven't had ANY ICE CREAM. I get a cheat day for my birthday, though, but now I don't even want any!! 

Diet: Varies day to day. In the mornings I'm not hungry, in the evenings I'm starving to death. We're also out of groceries right now and I HATE grocery shopping, so we're livin' on whatever is in the fridge. I make a lot of pancakes and we order/make pizza, which I don't particularly like that much so... that's good. Grilled cheeses are also a favorite around our house, but we're also running out of bread now, too. 

Exercise: UUUGHHHHH. Pregnancy is KILLING my workouts! I have so much pain... The doctor said I could walk but to stop doing anything the causes pain, which includes walking, so basically all I can do at this point is 1) stairs (yeah, that's weird) 2) pushups 3) air squats. I also throw in some partial burpees and double unders but neither of those things are very comfortable.

My sister and I did a 5k this past weekend. I signed up for it months ago thinking I'd still be running/jogging at this point. HA. So that was a terrible idea. It was so miserable. Within the first half mile I wanted to quit. At mile 1 I cried a little. I was so slow that by the time we got to the first water station they were out of water.. and we were literally in front of only 2 other people. I think by the end of it we may have even been dead last. I've never done a "race" that caused that much pain. And all I was doing was WALKING... IN SLOW MOTION.

 Aches and pains: Lower back, hips, tailbone, pelvic bone, feet, ankles... heartburn continues to worsen (for my husband too, lol). 

Maternity clothes:
 A friend of mine gave me some of her maternity gym clothes, they make a world of difference. Luckily I have a boss who loves me and doesn't seem to mind that I wear the same pair of pants to work everyday. I prefer dresses but it's getting a lot cooler outside and they're not very warm!

Favorite moment this week: Ultrasound! She has grown SO much! she is such a wiggle worm and loves to suck on her hand (not just the thumb, she was going to town on both hands).

Looking forward to: Thanksgiving break! It's one of my favorite times of the year, cooking and spending time with family. Last year on Thanksgiving I was doing a nutrition challenge and couldn't eat ANY of the good food. It. Was. Torture. This year on Thanksgiving I'll be 36 weeks pregnant and ain't NOBODY keeping me from eating all the pie!!

Friday, September 29, 2017

Pregnancy: 28 Weeks (aka 18 years)

Hello third trimester! Goodbye being able to see my feet, tie my own shoes, breathe while walking up the stairs, and other pre-pregnancy things I took for granted!

Last week I drank the sugar goop that proves that pregnant women can, in fact, ingest 50 grams of sugar in 2 minutes or less. Result? I passed my glucose test! I was also told my iron levels were really impressive. Not bragging or anything... but I'm pretty awesome.

Time is still dragging. Slow. Like molasses. On a winter day. Not an Oklahoma winter day, but a winter day somewhere else that actually experiences winter. And the molasses is frozen solid. And everyone told it that it wouldn't be so slow, and it believed everyone because it hasn't be pregnant in almost 7 years so had forgotten everything. Yes, the molasses is thinking ALL THAT.

Okay, stop whining! As much as I complain about pregnancy, there really are things that I LOVE about it.

1) Knowing there will be a baby at the end!

2) Feeling her move and kick. Sometimes it's annoying... like when my bladder has 0.5 ounces of fluid in it and she thinks it's taking up too much space, so she kicks me until I go to the bathroom! But most of the time feeling her move is incredible and amazing and beautiful.

3) Talking about it! I love sharing my experiences (obviously) with others (I'm self-centered like that).

4) My skin. It isn't super glowy or anything, but seriously, pregnancy hormones are so much nicer to my face than my normal hormones. I have less acne during pregnancy than usual. Once the baby is here I'll go back to having the complexion of a 13 year old.

5) Blaming bad eating habits on the baby. My friends all know that really it's not the baby's fault, but the stranger at Braums has no idea, so I just order my ice cream and say, "You know, for the baby," and they nod like it's totally normal and understandable. HA, amateurs!


Today's Date: 9/29/17

How many weeks: 28 weeks (and 1 day...)

Trimester: 3rd

How big is the baby?: About the size of a large eggplant, around 2.25 lbs and between 14.5 and 15 inches long. WHOA!

Gender: Girl!
Name: Still no idea!

Weight gain: 23 pounds. Y'all.

Food cravings: Nothing specific, just all the sugar.

Food aversions: None. Good grief. Donuts do give me heartburn... but I still want them. 

Diet: Same. Evenings are still the hardest part of the day...

Breakfast: Coffee (with coconut oil, milk, honey, and vanilla extract).

Mid-morning snack: Granola bar or (sometimes and...) banana

Lunch: chicken, rice, sweet potato, and veggies (bell peppers, onion, broccoli). I top it off with cheese. Or whatever is leftover from dinner the night before.. because I haven't been grocery shopping in a while...

Afternoon snack:
 Protein bar and an apple.

Dinner: Protein source, like chicken, tuna, steak, eggs... and carbs. All the carbs.

Evening snack: Decaf coffee or green tea... Sometimes cereal. Graham crackers. Fruit smiles. Whatever I have in the pantry.

Exercise: I haven't been to my gym in three weeks... not because I can't or don't want to, but other things just keep coming up. I'm still working out solo at home... it STINKS. But I can't NOT workout, so I just work with what I have and do what I can. I miss throwing around a barbell...

Aches and pains: Lower back, butt, and pelvic pain. My doctor said that I can still workout but to cut out anything that causes pressure or pain, so far that means running (I can still jog a teeny bit in spurts) and lunges, of all things. No more situps, but I can still plank and do some core stuff.

Heartburn continues to get worse! My feet are swelling more and more, fun.

Maternity clothes:
 Yes, lots. And my husbands t-shirts. Not very flattering, but comfy. I even bough some maternity underwear... that's a real thing. You're welcome for sharing.

Favorite moment this week: Hitting the 3rd trimester! 12 weeks or less to go!

Looking forward to: I think since we're halfway through our fall semester and I'm in the last trimester, pregnancy will go by faster (fingers crossed). I have several baby showers coming up, too. I think once we start getting "stuff" for baby girl, things will get real. So far we've done nothing to prepare... we have the onesie I bought for my husband when I told him the news, and the crib my sister gave me that still hasn't been put together. Gah where are we going to put all this baby's stuff!? Looking forward to getting organized!

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Pregnancy: 26 Weeks

Life is getting crazier, schedules busier, etc. My daughter is TWELVE today! That blows my mind! Pretty sure yesterday she was 3... not sure how this time warp thing happened!

Christmas 2009, Age 4
I'm just a couple weeks shy of the 3rd trimester! Even though things have been busier, time is not going by ANY FASTER. Goodness, pregnancy feels like it lasts a lifetime. I remember after I had my shoulder surgery last November and complaining that 6 weeks felt like an eternity... HA.

I've been having the CRAZIEST dreams. I've always had weird dreams, but pregnancy has really upped my dream game. A couple weeks ago I dreamed that we had a neighbor who raised demon cats and one of them was attacking me so, obviously, I had to kill it. I won't give you the details, but seriously, it was pretty graphic. The next day, Ali text her daddy saying she wanted a kitten for her birthday. LOL Sorry, but no!

A few days ago I dreamed that there were miniature skeletons growing (yes, GROWING, like plants) underneath our picnic table. Once they were fully grown they would attack me (I had tiny bite marks all over my arms). I had to dismember them to make them stop... I blame this morbid dream on the fact that I bought a small plastic skeleton for Jordan a few days ago because his favorite Halloween book is "The Bones of Fred McFee." I was concerned that he would have nightmares about skeletons... He didn't. Lucky him.

I've had dreams about the baby, too. Not normal dreams, but at least not as far fetched and insane as demon cats or miniature ninja skeletons. In one dream, I had the baby and then we went home... and forgot her at the hospital. I had to go back the next day and beg them to let me have my baby... "I'm not a bad mom, I promise, I just forgot to take her home!" And then, when they did let me take her home, we didn't have a car seat so she had to ride in my lap.

In another dream, we had scheduled a c-section for 10:59 in the morning (I wonder if that time is significant?), and I refused to go to the hospital because we hadn't picked out a name yet and no one could convince me that we could name her AFTER she was born. "No, we can't, it's illegal to have a baby without a name."

One of my most comical dreams involved our church. It was flooded with water, but our preacher continued preaching (in his wet suit) while the bus minister played the drums and one of our teens jammed on the electric guitar. Meanwhile... we, the church members, were taking turns diving for the antique Civil War cannon that lay at the bottom of our flooded sanctuary. I think there was a bit about an underwater piano concert, too, but I can't remember the whole thing...


Today's Date: 9/14/17

How many weeks: 26 weeks

Trimester: 2nd

How big is the baby?: About the length of a scallion (14 inches long and about 1 2/3 pounds)

Gender: Girl!

Weight gain: 21 pounds. I really thought about not including this anymore, but surely there are other pregnant women out there who eat decent AND exercise AND STILL gain a ton of pregnancy weight.. so even though it's embarrassing and I hate admitting it... I'm going to keep including it. For now! lol

Food cravings: Green tea (but I recently re-read the book "Me Before You" AND I'm also re-reading Harry Potter book 7... and they're both British so.. I think the hot tea has more to do with that than pregnancy...)

Food aversions: None. 

Diet: Same. Evenings are still the hardest part of the day, but drinking decaf coffee (or a lovely mug o' tea) helps. 

Breakfast: Coffee (with coconut oil, milk, honey, and vanilla extract).

Mid-morning snack: Granola bar or (sometimes and...) banana

Lunch: chicken, rice, sweet potato, and veggies (bell peppers, onion, broccoli). I top it off with cheese.

Afternoon snack:
 Protein bar and an apple.

Dinner: Protein source, like chicken, tuna, steak, eggs... and carbs.

Evening snack: Decaf coffee or green tea... Sometimes I cave and have cereal. My downfall.

Exercise: Hanging in there! Because life is just getting all kinds of crazy, I've had to skip the gym and just workout at home quite a bit lately. I realllllly wish I owned a kettle bell and a med-ball. I'm so tired of using my 25# dumbell for everything! It would also be nice to own a row machine... and a barbell... a girl can dream...

Basically my workouts are the same movements over and over again, just different quantities or length of time. Air squats, burpees, pushups, tricep dips, lunges, single arm snatches, occasionally double unders but I can't do very many before my bladder complains.

Aches and pains: My tailbone is ridiculous, I swear. Sitting hurts, standing up hurts, walking hurts, etc. Still having pelvic pain but this has gotten better since I quit running. BUT THAT MAKES ME SAD. 

Also my normal other stuff, like hips and knees. Heartburn has gotten considerably worse!

Maternity clothes:
 I need more but I hate spending money on stuff I'll only wear for a short time! I have one pair of maternity jeans that I wear at LEAST once a week, sometimes 2 or 3 times. Basically I live in dresses. I'd LOVE to splurge on some maternity workout clothes... but I'm pretty cheap so I doubt I will! I've just been wearing big tshirts and XL shorts... but even those aren't comfortable!

Favorite moment this week: We had a great time on the farm with my dad a couple weekends ago. One of my sisters came down one day, too, and I loved getting to spend time with her and her family.

Looking forward to: Ali's birthday weekend! (It will probably end up being a lot of work, she's having a sleepover with her friends). Festivities include a scavenger hunt and then movie under the stars. Popcorn, candy, soda, cupcakes, chips, pizza, s'mores... they may never go to bed! But it sure will be fun!

For fun, here's TWO pictures for you today: One of me 6 months pregnant with Jordan, and today. I think you'll also enjoy seeing what my husband looked like back in the day!!!!! LOL

Friday, September 1, 2017

Pregnancy: 24 Weeks

24 weeks down, about 15 weeks to go! That still feels like a LONG TIME to wait! But, with fall just around the corner, I think (pray!) that the next few months fly by! I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR. I love cooler mornings and falling leaves... I love Halloween decorations and trick-or-treating... I love Thanksgiving dinners and getting together with family... I love the Christmas season and decorating the tree... AHHHH How could anyone not love September through December!? Best time of the YEAR! Plus I'll have several breaks OFF WORK. I have 8 seminars to put on this semester and 1 four-day conference to attend... I am going to be (already am) SWAMPED over the next few months! With all this stuff going on, I'm sure time will go by much quicker and before we know it, baby girl will be here!

One last thing: NO, WE HAVE NOT PICKED A NAME! And don't expect one anytime soon; it's so much pressure! 


Today's Date: 9/1/17 (y'all, for real, I typed out 8/32/17 at first...)

How many weeks: 24 weeks (+1 day...)

Trimester: 2nd

How big is the baby?: About the length of an ear of corn... approximately a foot long and weighing in at over a pound!

Gender: Girl!

Weight gain: 18 lbs. That's all I'm saying.

Food cravings: One day last week... I wanted salad. That was weird. Now I'm back to normal, so no cravings.

Food aversions: In the evenings now I want to EAT and I am SO hungry, but nothing sounds good. It's weird. Nothing makes me sick or turn my head, it's just that sometimes nothing sounds very appetizing. It's a foreign thing for me to experience...

Diet: I have done a lot better the past couple of weeks. My daytime meals are basically the same, but in the evenings I've stopped eating the entire pantry. Most nights, between 8-10 when I would normally consume 600 extra calories in cereal or ice cream (you think I'm kidding?), I've started drinking decaf coffee instead. It usually keeps me from overeating right before bed and ruining the whole day. 

Breakfast: Coffee (with coconut oil, milk, honey, and vanilla extract).

Mid-morning snack: Granola bar or banana

Lunch: chicken, rice, sweet potato, and cooked veggies (bell peppers, onion, broccoli). I top it off with cheese.

Afternoon snack:
Protein bar and an apple.

Dinner: Protein source, like chicken, tuna, steak, eggs... Carbs, usually white bread. Not the greatest but it's better than ice cream, right?

Evening snack: Decaf coffee, prepared just like my morning coffee. If I'm still hungry afterwards I might have a package of fruit smiles (but I throw the purple ones in the trash! Yuck!) or crackers, mayyyyybe peanut butter ;)

Exercise: Hanging in there! Going to the gym 3-4 times a week, modifying when necessary. This week I did Fran at RX! It was slower than my fastest time, but faster than my slowest ever time, so I'm calling it a win! Trying to focus more on strength these past couple of weeks because of some odd pains I've been having when I do a lot of cardio... see below...

Aches and pains: Pelvic pain. Yes, for real. Also butt/lower back pain. These both get worse when I do anything jarring, like running or jumping (even if I go slow... sometimes even walking hurts!). This has been realllly difficult to cope with because I love workouts that incorporate a lot of running, but last weekend I almost had to stop during the workout because of the pain in my pelvic bone. Google (a reliable source, I've heard) says it isn't uncommon. Well for me it is! I didn't have this issue with Jordan! I was also a lazy sloth with him, too, so maybe that has something to do with it. I'll ask my doc at the next appointment. 

Also my normal other stuff, like hips and knees. Heartburn has gotten worse, but not terrible.

Maternity clothes:
 I ordered more! I can still wear my stretchy skinny jeans, but they're getting too tight in the LEGS AND BUTT.

Favorite moment this week: Feeling her squirm and kick, I'd forgotten how magical it feels to carry around another human being inside of me 24/7. You just can't ever forget about being pregnant. I'll be in the middle of a meeting at work, or working out at the gym, or eating lunch... and there she is, kicking and making her presence known!

Looking forward to: Going to the farm this weekend! I haven't visited my parents in a while (work work work), so we're packing up to go down and spend a couple of days. Few things beat drinking a cup of coffee while sitting on their front porch with my mom. It is so peaceful.
I definitely have a noticeable BUMP now!
My butt is doing a heck of job trying to keep up...