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Wednesday, May 24, 2017

What Is Your Biggest Regret?

So this video popped up on my FB feed and I started to share it, but the my comment was SO long and I thought... might as well make that a blog post instead! Here is the video:


I love this so much. What are things you WANT to do but you DON'T because you are afraid? 

Truth time: This is one of the biggest reasons I started working out, and why I still do it on a regular basis. I am young. My body is capable of doing so much. SO IS YOURS. I don't want to turn 40, 50, 60, 70... and look back and WISH I had taken better care of myself. WISH that I had signed up for crazy races and taken chances even though I was afraid of failure. 

How many times have you looked back on a photo of yourself when you thought you were "fat" and thought... "Man, I wish I was as 'fat' now as I was back then!" I've seen that quote on Pinterest, I know you have too. And I have totally been there. I don't want to live like that. I will never be 100% satisfied with my body, but I am SO PROUD of what my body has accomplished over the past few years! My body made a another human being. My body ran 3 half marathons. My body learned how to do bar muscle-ups. My body runs and does CrossFit. I don't regret ANY of that! 

Here are some things I DO regret:

1) Making decisions based on what other people think. I do this on a daily basis. I'm talking LIFE decisions! I hate letting people down, saying no. I've taken jobs before because I thought I would feel guilty applying for something and then turning it down. WHA?? Who does that!? 
2) I regret not being a better friend. I am so selfish and so in the "now" all the time. I'm friends with whoever is around me at the time, and I am terrible about staying in touch with those I don't see very often. If that's you, I'm so sorry. I'm working on it. 
3) I regret not taking better care of my shoulder. I should have went to a different doctor for a second opinion when I first injured it! But I didn't, and I made it worse, and now here I am 6 months out from surgery with at least 6 months of recovery remaining. If you have an injury, even if you don't think it's serious, have it checked out. What's the worst that could happen? For me it was about money. But had I sucked it up and paid for the initial MRI all those years ago, I probably could have avoided a VERY expensive surgery later down the road. 
4) I regret not being a more understanding step-parent when my husband and I first got married. I love my little girl like she is my own! I've always treated her like she's "mine"... and I never even considered how it all would make a biological mom feel. I wish I could go back and be more understanding and considerate in that situation.
5) I regret all the years I strayed from God. I regret not listening to what He wanted me to do with my life, and I regret how bad I made being a Christian "look" during my college days! 

I could go on and on about the things I regret! I 'm sure you could, too!

Regret happens in so many areas of life. Going back to school, finishing a degree, applying for the dream job, moving, traveling, starting a family, saying "I'm sorry," volunteering, getting healthy, losing weight, going to church. 

Take a minute. Think about your life, your dreams. Think about the regrets you already have now and realize that you CAN do something about them! What are some things you want to accomplish that you're not because you're afraid of what people might think? Afraid it might be too hard? Afraid you might fail? That's no way to live! 

Everyday you wake up is another opportunity to DO SOMETHING. 

Don't live a life of regret. 

GO LIVE YOUR LIFE! 

Monday, May 1, 2017

13.1 DONE

Woohoo! I am so glad to be finished with the half marathon! I'm never running again! HA

I wish I had more pictures to share but... It was SO COLD and all I could think from 6 a.m. till "finish-line" a.m. was coffee coffee coffee pancakes pancakes warm warm warm. I hate cold so much!

So, how'd it go?

Confession: I was never able to consistently run further than 8 miles during my training. Don't get me wrong, I tried. I stuck to my training plan, but my body for unknown reasons this time around did not want to cooperate. I kept getting an unbearable side stitch during the first TWO miles of every single long run. I don't know why!! All my "short" speed runs were fine. A 4 mile run followed by 2 miles of speed work didn't bother me, but an 8 mile run would each time result in a side stitch within the first few miles. WHY!? So anyway, I tried 8 miles 3 different times and was only able to do it once, and I tried 10 miles twice and couldn't get further than 8 on either of those, either.

So I went into this race knowing I wasn't going to get a PR. Oh well...

My sister Angela and I agreed to stay together (we discussed it after the gun had gone off, not a very lengthy conversation)... this was a mistake for me. She was MUCH better prepared than I was! This was her first half marathon and she killed it. She also killed me. I kept telling her, "We're going too fast," and she'd say, "We'll walk eventually." Well, liar liar pants on fire, she never walked!

At mile 2 or 3, I had to stop and pee. I blame the side stitch paranoia. I hydrated REALLY well the days leading up this race. I thought maybe I wasn't hydrating well enough and that was what was causing all those side stitches? IDK. So yes, I had to stop very early. And by this point my hands were already crazy numb and useless. I go to take off my shorts and guess what... I had accidentally pinned my race bib through my shirt AND shorts. So I had to get the stupid pin opened, then re-pin it... the whole process took about 5 minutes. My sister was beginning to think I was never coming out of the porta potty.

The next few miles felt really good. No side stitch, lungs felt great (which was surprising since I forgot my inhaler), my legs felt strong... And then...

At mile 8, my legs decided to show me pain that they normally keep hidden. I had KNEE pain so bad I had to LIMP up every hill. I'VE NEVER HAD KNEE PROBLEMS! But it was like all my body parts had a secret meeting without me and decided to make running this race as miserable as possible. EVIL. My hips felt so tight that even walking hurt. It was so frustrating! At this point I graciously bowed out and allowed my sister to run off and leave me. In those last 5 miles she put herself a full 13 MINUTES AHEAD OF ME. Her pace was much faster without me dragging her down. Brat! But no really, I'm super proud of her. Also super jealous.

Maybe it's because I turn 30 this year. Maybe it's because it was cold. Maybe it's because I'm a big baby and I don't handle pain well... But I have vowed to never do another half marathon. And no, I'm not doing a full, either. I used to think I was a runner, but now... maybe I've just been pretending all these years! I mean--regardless of how much I train, my pace has gradually gotten slower and slower over time. My first 5K I ever ran was my fastest. My first half marathon was my fastest. I know that a fast pace isn't what defines a runner, but I am a competitive person, and I'd like to at least beat myself occasionally! You know, the whole, "Today I'll be better than I was yesterday, and tomorrow I'll be better than I am today" kind of thing.

Okay, I'm being dramatic. I am still a runner and I will continue to run, but I think 8 miles is my body's wall. Give me a week or two, I'll change my mind and probably sign up for another half marathon. But as of right now... NEVER AGAIN!

Final time: 2.26.32 (10 minutes slower than PR). Whatever.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

What Are Your Bad Excuses?

I've been working out an a regular basis since my son was born over 6 years ago. It started out just running, then going to the gym, then crossfit, and now just mostly running again because of my shoulder.

I have had numerous people come up to me over the years and comment about how they want to lose weight or get in shape, and they need advice. They'll ask me about how much a gym membership costs. Some have asked if I would be willing to train them. A LOT of people ask me how I find the time. Some ask about nutrition. Some complain that they don't have any support. I am going to address all these things...

Is gym membership expensive? 
In my opinion, yes, if you go to a quality gym with trainers that know what they are doing, it is expensive. Before I came to ECU (where employees get a FREE membership for now!), I spent about $1200 a year on a gym membership, and that's on the CHEAP end, y'all. Committing to a gym is expensive. BUT... IT IS WORTH IT. You know what else is expensive? Getting your hair done, getting your nails done, eating out, going to the movies, buying clothes, paying bills... but we do all those things anyway. WHY? BECAUSE THEY ARE PRIORITIES. If your hair is a priority, then by all means spend your money on it. If having a night out with your spouse is a priority, then YES, spend your money on it! And if getting your body into shape is important to you, then PAY THE DANG MEMBERSHIP FEE. I've made a LOT of financial sacrifices over the years so that I could afford going to the gym. I don't regret any of it.

But also remember--YOU DON'T NEED A GYM TO BE AN ACTIVE HUMAN BEING. If you really can't afford it, then take up walking or jogging. Buy the DVDs you saw off that infomercial with the sweaty man telling you, "You can do it!" Look up some workouts on Pinterest.

"Can you be my trainer?"
NO. Trust me... you do NOT want me to train you. I am NOT certified. Asking someone to train you who is not certified is insane, I'm sorry. I have basic knowledge of fitness because I do it... but that does not make me a professional. It's like assuming that anyone who ever went to elementary school could be a teacher. Nooooo, it doesn't work like that. I can tell you what I do, and you can copy me if you want to, but trust me when I say that every body is different. You don't want someone untrained telling you what your body could or should do. Find a certified trainer, my friend.

"I don't know how you do it--I just don't have time!"
Yes, you do. Do you have time to watch The Walking Dead? Do you have time to go out and eat after church on a Sunday afternoon? Do you have time to read a book? Play on social media? Go out with your friends?

This excuse kills me. YOU HAVE TIME. The problem is that exercising is not a PRIORITY. We all do the things that are important to us. I have an 8-5 job and two kids. I am active in our church and I volunteer at least once a month. I go to basketball games, softball games, plays, movies, birthday parties, holiday events, dinners, field trips, doctor appointments... I have to plan out my weekends months in advance. We are SO busy. But I will never be too busy to take care of my body because my health (both physical and MENTAL) is a priority to me. So the next time you start to say, "I don't have time!" STOP. Instead say, "It is not important to me." Because that's really what you mean.

"Eating healthy is expensive. And hard."
You won't find me arguing as much here. Going to McDonald's is cheaper than buying the ingredients myself and cooking them at home. And it's also faster. And some people (like my rotten children) think it tastes better than a home cooked meal.

But here is the thing: I care about what goes into my body... I'm gonna say like 75% of the time. I stopped using artificial sweeteners in my coffee; I don't eat at most fast food restaurants; I don't drink soda; I buy mostly organic stuff; I try to plan ahead what I'm going to order if we go out somewhere for dinner...

BUT... I also eat really bad a lot, too. I can't say no to donuts or pancakes. I LOVE coconut cream pie. And my favorite meal each month is our Sunday evening potluck we do at church. Ohhhhh I loooooove casseroles and bread. mmmmmmm...

Learning to eat healthy-ish is hard. I spent years counting calories only worrying about that one number, but over time I've learned what kinds of good things my body needs and what kinds of bad things my body will tolerate. Do your research! If you want to go to the Olympics or be a body-builder or a model, you're going to have to learn to eat clean 24/7. Well I don't have the desire to do those things. So my rule is to eat clean most of the time. I make sure to eat plenty of protein, drink all my water, and eat my recommend servings of healthy fats, carbs, and vegetables every single day. And then if I want to eat the Reese egg out of my kid's Easter basket, well then so be it. I've learned to look at the ingredients instead of just thinking that "fat-free" means "healthy." Again... do your research!

"No one really supports me, I don't want to do it alone"
It can be 300 times harder (scientific number, duh) to be active and eat healthy if your significant other/parents/kids/friends or whoever isn't doing it, too. BUT IT IS NOT IMPOSSIBLE. 

You don't have to eat the same crap your family or friends eat. Sometimes if my husband and kids want to eat Sonic, I let them order their food... and then I go home and cook my own meal for myself. It isn't fun, but it's healthier.

When we cook at home and sit down as a family, I cook as healthy as I can and they either eat it or they starve. Sorry, kids, that's the deal. Same rule applies to my husband.

The other night we ordered pizza and I REALLY wanted a slice of cheese pizza, it sounded sooooo good. But I quickly realized there wasn't going to be enough if I ate some, so I skipped it altogether. While they ate the pizza, I had chicken breast and veggies.

I've been going to the gym by myself for 4 years. The first few weeks was scary--I didn't know anyone, I'd never been in a "gym" before, and I felt weak and out of shape. But I kept going. And now some of my closet friends are women I met at the gym!

I have never had a running partner. I have always ran by myself -- actually I prefer to run alone now!

If I can't make it to the gym and I don't feel like running, I program my own workout at home and I do it by myself. It's a totally normal thing at my house now for dad to be napping, kids to be watching tv, and mom be doing squat jumps in the living room. It can feel awkward at first... You get used to it.

If you really want to change, then change. You control your body and what goes into it. You are important. NOW GO MAKE YOURSELF A PRIORITY. 

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Half Marathon Training and Stupid Shoulder, Update



18 weeks since surgery? Is that right? I'm at the point now where I really can't keep track anymore. It's kinda like when your kid turns 2... you stop referring to them as "24" months old. They're 2! So we'll just assume it's been at least 4 months (maybe more?) since surgery.

I still have so much pain, it's very frustrating. I try to work on mobility throughout the day and a little strength here and there, but I have so many other things to think about and I've spent so much time thinking about my stupid shoulder that I'm just OVER IT. I still don't sleep well, I can't reach the top shelf in my kitchen, and I would be completely worthless in a fist fight.

So anyway, that's where I'm at there...

Also... HALF MARATHON is 3 weeks from Sunday! What!? I've been keeping up with training mostly. I did really well until I started being more aggressive with crossfit and may have accidentally been a little too gung-ho... a couple weekends ago I did the Crossfit Open 17.5 workout. I had to modify because I can't do thrusters, so I did

10 rounds
9 front squats 65#
35 double unders

I didn't really think about the fact that I haven't squatted much over the past couple of months, especially with anything heavier than my 25# dumbell. So 90 total front squats with a 65# barbell was waaaaaaay too much considering I was supposed to run 8 miles the next day. OOPS.

So basically I was comatose for an entire week. I was THAT sore. I tried to run, don't get me wrong, but it was ugly and slow and I probably should have just rested.

Did I learn my lesson? HA. Let's just say... I'm a slow learner.

So here I am, on week 13 of my training and I can barely hit the 8 mile mark. Plus I'm losing half my toenails and my feet are basically two giant blisters. I like running, I really do. But I only like running when it is a 10k or less. I like running when it's only 2 days a week. I like running when the weather is perfect. I like running when I'm listening to music.

I do NOT like running when it is cold (65 or below), hot (75 or above), windy, rainy, or cloudy. I don't like running on a major highway because of traffic and I don't like running on our backroads because of dogs. I especially do not like running when the only option is a treadmill. Just NO. I don't like running when it's humid. I don't like running when I'm tired or hungry or thirsty.

Anyway, I didn't mean to go off on a tangent there... Where was I? Oh, half marathon training, right.

Today I will try to hit 8 miles again followed by some speed work. I am trying to hydrate reallllly well (last time I only had one glass of water the entire day... oops). But I'm super sore from crossfit (oops) so we'll see how it goes.

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Monday, March 27, 2017

17 Weeks Post-Surgery

I meant to post an update at 16 weeks but being me, I forgot. Tomorrow (March 28th) marks 17 WEEKS since surgery. I am only going to physical therapy once a week now and I am fairly certain tomorrow will be my last visit. Not that I don't need it anymore... but at this point, I'm a little worried about insurance! I haven't received a single bill from the physical therapist. Once those bills start rolling in... that'll be fun.

Mobility has improved in a lot of areas, but the one that I've struggled with the most has not improved in several weeks. My upward rotation has been just barely at 160 degrees for what seems like eternity... and that's when I'm lying on my back and gravity is doing the work for me. I'm sure the more I use it the better it will get. I'm so ready to do real pull-ups again it's not even funny... but I still can't hold my own weight hanging from the bar.

Things I CAN do:

Power cleans
Pre-surgery max: 145#
Current max: 65#

Front squats
Pre-surgery max: 150#
Current max: 65#

Assisted pull-ups. I've done 3 sets of 10 with a green band and that felt okay. I try to pause at the bottom for about two seconds between reps to help stretch out that shoulder.

Push-ups (from my knees). I have always had poor form on these... but now I have no choice but to keep my elbows in tight or it hurts! I can't do very many, maybe 5-10 at a time with long breaks in between sets.

Deadlift:
Pre-surgery max: 300#
Current max 88# (KBs, 2x44)

Bench press:
Pre-surgery max: 110#
Current max: I used a dumbell the other day, 25#!
*Side note: this is one of the many movements that did not improve in 3 years of lifting. I always blamed the shoulder... maybe I'll start seeing this improve more! Or maybe not...

It's funny how I get really excited about these movements when they are happening... but typing out the numbers is a little depressing! lol I have such a long way to go! I feel like I spend 10 hours out of every day just stretching my stupid shoulder, and every morning I wake up feeling like someone tightened it up to the max all over again. I still don't sleep well, I wake up in pain any time I move.

Things I can't do yet but I WILL:

OH stuff, all of it.
Snatches.
Handstand holds and handstand push-ups.
Ring dips.
Back squats.
Muscle-ups. !!!!!

I am so excited to be getting back! Slowly but surely I WILL get it all back. I HAVE TO. Muscle-ups, here I come!

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Good News Feels Like Bad News

I am officially 12 weeks post surgery today. I had my follow up with my surgeon this morning. This is the first appointment I've had with him since my shoulder repairs. PLURAL: REPAIRS. Because I hadn't seen him since the actual day of surgery, I wasn't aware of all things that had been done to my shoulder. I had a general idea, but I didn't know what half of it meant. Today he pulled up my x-rays and did some much needed explaining, 90% of which I still didn't understand but...

My shoulder was in worse shape than we thought. He said for a standard labral repair, recovery time is about 4 months from the date of surgery, meaning patients can generally begin doing normal sports stuff (in my case, crossfit). If that were the case, I'd be almost done with physical therapy. But I didn't have a standard labral repair, I had a reverse "hagl" repair. I don't know why that's worse, but has something to do with where the tear actually is and what it tore from. Or something like that. I think.

Then of course I had a dislocated shoulder, so he had to put anchors in there to stabilize the rotator cuff. I have anchors in the front, the back, and on top. Eventually these will "disappear" and my body will naturally fill in those spots with bone. This is why my shoulder feels SO TIGHT. Because he tightened it. Makes sense.

Aside from that was the "divot" that had formed in my shoulder joint (He made a lot of golf references today--something of which I know nothing! HA). Because my shoulder had been dislocating repeatedly for so long (3 years), it had created a "pocket" in the joint. So not only was my shoulder dislocating, it would sometimes get caught in that "divot." So he had to fill in that divot with my own bone. I don't know where that extra "bone" came from; I'm not a doctor.

He ended up making 3 repairs to my shoulder in different locations. He said that kind of extensive shoulder repair doesn't happen very often. I'm so lucky! ???

The good news is that I am recovering as expected. He said he was not surprised that I still have a lot of pain and that I can't raise my arm on my own past eye level. He wasn't surprised that I feel like I'm not progressing very quickly. So I guess it's good that all that stuff is expected and I'm where I should be. He also said I should progress more in the next few weeks and if I don't, he'll want to put me under again and.... I didn't hear the rest of what he said because I was shaking my head no PLEASE NO.

The bad news (in my eyes...): I CAN'T DO CROSSFIT FOR ANOTHER 3 TO 6 MONTHS, possibly even more! When he told me that I felt like I was going to fall over. I THOUGHT I WAS ALMOST THERE! He said to work on core. I can run. I can do body-weight leg related stuff. BUT I CANNOT DO ANYTHING WITH MY SHOULDER other than what I do for physical therapy. He recommends I continue physical therapy for at least another 3 months.

So that's where I'm at right now. I am going to refrain from posting any more updates until I hit the 16 week mark. I'll continue to train for my half marathon, and I will continue going to the gym and doing ridiculous amounts of double unders and box jumps.

Recovery: I'M COMING FOR YOU.

Friday, February 17, 2017

Almost to 12 Weeks...

Well here's an update for all 2 of my fans (thanks husband and mom)...

I am a few days shy of the 12 week post-op mark. Goodness time is dragging! I have another follow-up with my doctor next Tuesday in which he will most likely send me to another 4 weeks of physical therapy. I made SO MUCH progress this week! Weeks 9-10 were so maddening. I felt like I was getting nowhere. And then this week, BAM, progress!! It feels so good! No, I still can't put my hair in a proper high pony-tail BUT I can give a [super soft] high five! Here are some things I can now cross off my goal list:

1. I'd like to be able to wash and fix my hair normally again. PLEASE! I can now mostly wash an fix my hair! High pony-tails are still hard, but I can do it (it just doesn't look very good..). I can, however, rock a low pony-tail, curl, straighten, and scrunch. BOOM.

2. Put on deodorant like a normal person...  YES THANK YOU! And shaving isn't quite as difficult anymore, either.

3. Sleep. Well... this one is about 50/50. On days I hit physical therapy pretty hard, I'm super sore and do not sleep well. Other days I take it easy and I sleep well enough.

4. I'd like to eliminate my fear of injury. I'm not worried anymore. Physical therapy HURTS, but it is definitely a different kind of pain and I'm so relieved.

5. Muscle ups. Still a long ways from this one.

6. Carry my son again. I love love LOVE being able to carry my big heavy sleeping baby to bed when he falls asleep on the couch. I still have to be careful but I can do it. Definitely my favorite thing. <3

Here's what's going on with fitness:

I am still training for my half marathon. I can run around 5 miles fairly easily. I don't think I'll have any problems staying with my training program!

I'm doing CrossFit again about 3 times a week on top of running. I modify 90% of the movements, which totally sucks, but it's better than nothing!

I am regaining muscle mass in my surgery arm! Physical therapy requires I do some weight training for my shoulder but it is suuuuuper light (I'm up to 3 lb dumbell curls! HA). So far I have had ZERO problems with this part of therapy. I still struggle big time with mobility, but that's normal (so they say). They keep telling me "We need to get you to 160 degrees by 12 weeks." This refers to how far back I can get my arm to go when I'm lying down. Last week I was at around 150, but since I made so much progress this week I think I'm almost there! We measure again on Monday.

And that's about it! I expect the next 4 weeks to show a TON of progress. I'll be back doing pullups and hang cleans and snatches and all the fun stuff in no time!

Oh, and for fun, here's a picture of my right [surgery] arm (top) versus my left arm (bottom):


Tuesday, February 7, 2017

10 Weeks Post Op

UUGHH Could time go any slower!?!? It has now been 10 weeks since surgery. Today I started my fourth week of physical therapy. I'm on schedule and doing well... but I'm nowhere near where I want to be!

The good news is that I get to start doing more this week. YAY! I mean really it isn't much (I'm up to 2 pound bicep curls...) BUT I did leave physical therapy looking like someone had mugged me in a dark alley, so that's gotta be a good sign. He did a lot of pulling and bending on my shoulder. I did a lot of yelling and some crying, and may have issued a few threats. I always leave feeling like they put my shoulder through a meat grinder. Must mean improvement!

In other news, I'm still training for my half marathon, slowly but surely. I'm up to 4 whole miles now! I'm also back to crossfit. Yea, you read that right! Basically all I can do is leg stuff and double unders, but it's so nice being back. I haven't missed the workouts (maybe a little...) but I have really REALLY missed working out with my group! It sucks having to modify everything, but I WILL get back to normal eventually!

In two weeks my physical therapist says I get to start doing the hard stuff (3 pound curls?) and I am SO excited. I asked if that meant I could practice muscle ups... he laughed at me before realizing I was serious. "Uhh, no..."

laughing monkey

Monday, January 23, 2017

Physical Therapy Week One

One down, 5 (or more...) weeks to go! I started physical therapy for my shoulder last week. It HURTS... but all I can think through the pain is THIS IS TEMPORARY! My PT asked me what my goals are. I named off 1,000. Here's a few:

1. I'd like to be able to wash and fix my hair normally again. PLEASE! And other normal day to day things, like putting on clothes and not needing help to get them back off again. My husband has to help me all the time to get my work clothes off (I doubt he minds, really). Don't even get me started on sports bras--uuuggghhh

2. Put on deodorant like a normal person... do you have any idea how hard it is to put deodorant under your left arm using your LEFT ARM. Just give it a try, go ahead, I'll wait. Also annoying: shaving.

3. Sleep. I thought this problem would be solved once I was free from the sling. NOPE.

4. I'd like to eliminate my fear of injury. I spent the past 3+ years worrying I was making it worse (I was) and not pushing myself because of it. Turns out that fear was probably a good thing. But now, since I'm all "fixed," I'd like to stop worrying about it. I want to push myself during workouts without fear of "making it worse."

5. Muscle ups. This is so vain. But I just think if I can manage getting some bar muscle-ups with a torn ligament and unstable rotator cuff, SURELY I'll be able to get some ring muscle-ups once I'm healed! COME ON PRETTY PLEASE!

6. Carry my son again. He's about to turn 6 and while he's small for his age, he still surpasses my 0.5 lb lifting limit. :( I miss being able to pick him up and give him hugs. I mean yes I still hug him and love on him, but so many times over the past 2 months he walks up to me and wants me to pick  him up, and I couldn't do it. I can't wait to get that back.

That's it for now! Basically I just want to get back what I had and MORE! Dreaming big here!


Tuesday, January 10, 2017

6 Weeks Post Surgery

I am so giddy I can hardly stand it! It has officially been 6 weeks since my HAGL repair! I am now DONE wearing the hideous black sling! Here is an update of what my future holds:

The doctor said that I can begin running and doing light exercising as long as it doesn't risk me falling (he doesn't know me very well--I risk falling any time my feet hit the floor).

I will begin physical therapy next week! I don't know how often I'll have to go, maybe twice a week? Who cares--I start NEXT WEEK! I will go for 6 weeks and then go back for another checkup with my surgeon. And then--they'll decide. He said it's likely I'll have to continue PT but at a higher intensity.

I can start lifting and doing CrossFit again in anywhere from 8-12 weeks, depending on how physical therapy goes. I'm kinda bummed but then again, this will allow me to focus on other things I've been neglecting, like cardio and my core. Because he said I could start running again as long as I'm safe, that's what I'll do! I have signed up for the OKC Half Marathon which is 16 weeks away! I've already put together my training schedule which starts (drum roll...) tomorrow! I've run the OKC Half before... but I didn't train for it last time. Oops. I promised to never ever make that mistake again! EVER.

So here I am, out of the sling and mentally preparing for what lies ahead!

I am SOOO excited to be sling-free!!! 
Look at that poor, sad little (HA) sling. It misses me already. I do not feel the same.

Cheers and AROO to the next 6 weeks!